shame

mahavir was a king
he called for a day of gathering for his people
the day he was to give away all he possessed
it was sea of people
from the day break till sunset he gave away everything he possessed
at the end he gave away his clothes borrowed a shawl from his sister and departed

on the way he found a lame man
he asked him about the distance of the place
where king is giving away

mahavir did not have heart to tell him
it is over
he split his shawl in half
he gave away half
wearing the other half he ran for jungle
thorny bush caught
what he was wearing
he stopped to retrieve for a moment

walked away forever from shame

কৃষ্ণ

imagine travelling
blasted off into space for a far away mission to a distant planet alone
entire travel is machine managed
at appointed time according to biological clock
darkness and light
sleep and awake and activity and communication

how long was asleep not known
but now awake
surrounding is darkness silence and zero gravity of space
try moving hand
is it moving
try speaking
try seeing
try sensing
think of earth
friends colleague and relations
are they there
did they ever exist

earth sun moon and space all absent
who knows how long it passes
is there time

glimpse of absolute
কৃষ্ণ
light that lightens world
do i exist


হরে কৃষ্ণ রাখে কে

I am hopeless

me

Periodic table charts out free form atoms building blocks of molecules. If that be truth it predicts existence of other atoms and isotope. I do not indulge in it since truth is relative. It is fantasy of mine corroborated from many words listened to and understood by me innocent and gullible.

One thing I know as absolute that I am composition of all that exist or existed or shall exist.

while I am unknowable yet I know.All is one hundred percent is me.

what I see is truly me.

একটাই বাতি
অদৃষ্ট

সব আলো দেখি
এরই আলোতে

দেখি সব আমি
আমি ছাড়া কেও নেই কিছু নেই

সব আলো নিবে যায়
দেখি অন্ধকার

এরই আলোতে
এইটা কখনো নিবেনা 

I am void

walk or run or do - can't get past or escape - now - it is always ....one and indivisible - real - harder than any - trapped within meaning of void - prevent nothing

কথা নেই

সব আমি
আমি নেই
কিছু নেই
কেও নেই
সব কথা
কথা নেই
সব এখন
এখন সত্য কথা মিথ্যা জগত মিথ্যা ভূত মিথ্যা ভবিষ্যত মিথ্যা 

words

[অলোকনন্দা ]

from void

elder to civilization

words

spring forth into civilization

flows through all living nonliving

unstoppable pure undiluted not a syllable lost

return

to void

[মহাভারতের কথা অমৃত সমান শুনে ধন্য হন যত পুন্যবান]

নির্বিকল্প সমাধি  - শংকর

there is no option but observe all as same - shankaracharya

পরিচালক

অদৃষ্ট টা আয়না

আমায় সাজিয়ে নানা রূপে

দেখায়  সর্বক্ষণ

যেদিকেই তাকাই শুধু আমি

অদৃষ্ট আছে আমি নেই

prisoner of now

এক বিন্দুতে বন্দী

এখনের পাকে আমার জীবন্ত কবর

কেও নেই কিছু নেই

সব আমি  

এক বিন্দুতে বন্দী

দিন দিয়ে হিসেব হয়না

এখনে বন্দী

শরীরে ব্যথা

এখনের পাঁকে পুরো ডোবা

কল্পনার জীবন

যা ভাবায় ভাবি
যা দেখায় দেখি
যা করায় করি

এক বিন্দুতে বন্দী

সব আমি
আমি নেই
যখন মনে করায় মনে করি
যখন ভোলায় ভুলি
যখন বাজায় বাজি

সাপুরের ঝাপায় বন্দী
বাজায় বাঁশি দোলায় আমায়

কেও নেই কিছু নেই
শুধু ই এখন
স্বাধীনতাহীন জীবন 

সব আমার সব সময় ভুল

সব আমার একার কল্পনা
সত্যি মিথ্যে জানিনা
কখনই জানবনা
সব আমি

আমি ছাড়া কেও নেই
ছিল না হবে না
যা ভাবি মিথ্যে
যা দেখি মিথ্যে
যা সুনি মিথ্যে
বলার কেও নেই

আমি নেই

সব আমার সব সময় ভুল
ঠিক হবা বা করা অসম্ভব

আমি নেই

আমি হবা অসম্ভব

আমার নিজের চোখে সব দেখা
সত্যি আমার মন গড়া মিথ্যে

আর আমার করার কিছু নেই

যাই ভাবিনা কেন ভাবনাটা যার
তার বড় ছোট সমান আগে বা পরে কেও নেই

ভিক্ষু নাকি পালি শব্দ

ভিক্ষু নাকি পালি শব্দ 

আমি তোমারই প্রতিবিম্ব 
আমার খালি বাটি এক টাকাতেই তুমি ভরাতে পারো 
কিন্ত তোমার বাটি কোটিতেও খালি 
আমার খালি বাটি দেখে যদিবা 
তোমার নিজের খালি বাটির কথা মনে পরে

snapshot

I am staying away from ISI
My classmates not truly inclined to help me with my missing classes and curriculum
I have to return home
i don't know where it is
and can't go back
my mother is with me...

i may try to eliminate my feelings of loss of knowledge honor and home
i may please myself but it is not necessary
i do not prevent
but I may

I am all without exception all is part of me

Money Distribution

Here is a new idea taking root in next election of President and hopeful has to make clear stand.

It is no longer Immigration Religion Color Sexual Orientation Oil or External Threat.

It is all about Share of Money and distribution of Money.

The money produced has to be earned.

Earning is to be taxed.

Taxed earning percentage wise must be more for higher income.

That should be spent as per need of the society's economic uplift common to all.

One must not assume money has gravity to trickle down to all at the bottom. It never does.

Monetary Policy can't be brainchild of those who does not like to share the earnings for the benefit of productivity of all.

Society can't be at mercy of those who does not like to be taxed for their earning. A Greece within USA is no longer part of our constitution. Meaning of capitalism needs be part of Constituion. 

বুরনের কবিতা

বুরনের কবিতা 

বহু তো পথ পেরিয়ে এলাম -- পঞ্চাশ ছুই ছুই 

তবুও তো তোমরা আমায় মানুষ মানলে কই 

কত পাখি করছে কেবল আকাশ পারাবার 

সময় কোথায় আছে ওদের ডানা জিরোবার 

প্রচুর জীবন ধংস হলেও চিনলে না আমায়  

প্রশ্ন গুলো কেমন কেবল প্রশ্ন ই থেকে যায় 

উত্তর? সে উত্তর তো  কারোরি নেই জানা 

তাই তো বোধহয়, এসব কিছু প্রশ্ন করাই মানা 

পাহাড় প্রমান দেনা মাথায়, মানুষ বাচতে তবু চায় 

বহু যুগের শেকল পরা ক্রিত দাসের ন্যায় 

দিশাহীন এ ছোটা সে কোন অলীক মায়ার খোজে 

আপনা বোঝ তো বা পাগল ও বুঝি বোঝে 

অন্ধ মানুষ গুলো, সপ্ন, কেবল সপ্ন বুঝি বা খোজে   

নিজের ভালো কটা মানুষ আজ বুঝি বা বোঝে 

প্রশ্ন গুলো কেমন কেবল প্রশ্ন ই থেকে যায় 

উত্তর? সে উত্তর তো  কারোরি নেই জানা 

তাই তো বোধহয়, এসব কিছু প্রশ্ন করাই মানা 

কত হাজার বছর পরে, মানুষ মুক্তি পাবে 

কত আধার রাতের পরে নতুন সূর্য উদয় হবে,

কত মানুষ বুড়িয়ে গেল তোমার কথা ভেবে 

কবে তুমি গরিব কে এই চরণ ধুলা দেবে 

বুড়ো পাগল মুক্তি খোজে জড়িয়ে তোমার পা 

ভালো বাসার সপ্ন টুকু ছিনিয়ে নিও না 

বহু তো পথ পেরিয়ে এলাম -- পঞ্চাশ ছুই ছুই 

তবুও তো তোমরা আমায় মানুষ মানলে কই 

কত পাখি করছে কেবল আকাশ পারাবার 

সময় কোথায় আছে ওদের ডানা জিরোবার 

..

প্রশ্ন গুলো কেমন কেবল প্রশ্ন ই থেকে যায় 

উত্তর? সে উত্তর তো  কারোরি নেই জানা 

তাই তো বোধহয়, এসব কিছু প্রশ্ন করাই মানা 

Leadership crisis in USA

I can't predict unlike any.

Whenever I did, I failed (in private life as well as public).

I had tremendous bias towards my ability to analyze or gauge from news reading; but I misread and my hopes of future is dashed and not listened to by whoever in charge of creation of future.

My brother Gopal was better suited to predict tugged far away in a corner of world with 3 miles radius.

My brother Kamal was very quiet never given in to prediction even though certainly he was better probabilist than anyone I have known.He was very practical since he played bridge where probability is not top skill but basic; here to be a bridge player one must place the cards in correct position with certainty - I am just echoing his words.Recounting 2008 election campaign - it was clear from the very beginning Republicans were chosen to lose - they had no option but support the greedy war of Iraq and ordinary Americans were inflicted with wound beyond repair would not support.Hilary Clinton was not supposed to get nomination of Democrats despite money and ideas. She did not have touch with people even though she was in public for twenty years. It was unrealistic ambition to climb the throne based on merit. She had to give way to an under dog - one time senator with borrowed ideas but people believed him to be more sincere than Hilary.There is no sincerity in her. In the next 4 years after election she proved that much. She took the portfolio of Secretary of states traveled more than million miles visited above 100 countries created personal network of people of influence not for benefit of America but for her personal fortune. Kept nations secrets in her own computer and not ever shared with nation. Money spent on war never benefited America in fact created a demon called ISIS far worse than Al-Qaeda every where in the world Iraq Libya Syria Yemen Bangladesh ...Result of her diplomacy for self benefit.Future will tell if Hilary is preferred choice of the creator - that is - she is what America deserves.

Chai Pe Upar Char chya

my disgust of Modi and his words without substance and his collection of people and lack of education of his entire team and his tea shop style governance of India and his mind set can't be confidence building in near and distant future. It is punishment dealt out to now 67 years old deserving India who promotes story tellers as leaders. Mody however proving to be extreme -everyday a new way to calculate National Growth Rate is introduced in days it is double digit growth rate!! Entire cabinet is without intellect and education only noise shout down past and country is simply without future.

10 months old glob trotting story teller is demolished by two months' absentee - "Whatever is built in India rests on the foundation made by the farmers. But farmers' concerns, their children's future, their education and health are not Modi's agenda. He lives his own dream."

http://www.telegraphindia.com/1150420/jsp/frontpage/story_15633.jsp#.VTRErJMr4Qs

nash

i did see the film Beautiful mind
i also think his imagination of multiple equilibrium in a game table is possible and they are not zero sum - loss is not necessarily gain for some
casino owner may create a set up where it is positive always and so is some of its customers - win win situation

it took some promotion to make Nash an Economics Nobel Laureate - he lost his equilibrium
I really do not know his work in geometry for him to get Abel's prize this year
returning from prize awarding ceremony he had accident and died along with his wife

Nash was not ill - his apparent illness earned him unique merit of earning two highest awards in economics and mathematics

this world has no ill or evil

Varadhan an ISI alumni is also recipient of Abel's prize - http://www.abelprize.no/

little girl Cicilia

Little girl Cycilia greets me every morning and several times in a day
She is so little that I thought she has no ability to recognize
But she greets me with a smile that is different from all other
She pouts her two pink delicate petal lips and holds her eyes on to my eyes
and waits for me to come and take her in my arms
there after we look out together to see the world through my windows and doors 

paul brunton

I can't attribute to me that I am reading Paul Branton
I am dummy and i can't change my stance
yet I look at myself and my changes in the course of life
my inability to check my passion and longing during 1977
my deep effort to forget my personal relationship in 1975
my wounded pride conflicting with my courage and honesty
my pages of pages daily writing of whatever came to my mind to put an order in my mind s that i can be at least professional
my marriage my family life
my near 40 years struggle to make progress and control thought
my current realization that i am nothing but dummy
yo yo played by that remain distant i can't touch but playing with me setting up people and male think their thought and hurting my pride and make suffer and dance in order to maintain my status-quot as balanced human being and not crazy which i know i am
my inability to be to make any progress in the eyes of fellow human being
the question of superiority or inferiority is deep troubling matter for me
I like to keep it hidden in my self
even when i hit nadir
i let it happen with great suffering

every moment of my life is divine