Saturday, May 30, 2015

Leadership crisis in USA

I can't predict unlike any.

Whenever I did, I failed (in private life as well as public).

I had tremendous bias towards my ability to analyze or gauge from news reading; but I misread and my hopes of future is dashed and not listened to by whoever in charge of creation of future.

My brother Gopal was better suited to predict tugged far away in a corner of world with 3 miles radius.

My brother Kamal was very quiet never given in to prediction even though certainly he was better probabilist than anyone I have known.He was very practical since he played bridge where probability is not top skill but basic; here to be a bridge player one must place the cards in correct position with certainty - I am just echoing his words.Recounting 2008 election campaign - it was clear from the very beginning Republicans were chosen to lose - they had no option but support the greedy war of Iraq and ordinary Americans were inflicted with wound beyond repair would not support.Hilary Clinton was not supposed to get nomination of Democrats despite money and ideas. She did not have touch with people even though she was in public for twenty years. It was unrealistic ambition to climb the throne based on merit. She had to give way to an under dog - one time senator with borrowed ideas but people believed him to be more sincere than Hilary.There is no sincerity in her. In the next 4 years after election she proved that much. She took the portfolio of Secretary of states traveled more than million miles visited above 100 countries created personal network of people of influence not for benefit of America but for her personal fortune. Kept nations secrets in her own computer and not ever shared with nation. Money spent on war never benefited America in fact created a demon called ISIS far worse than Al-Qaeda every where in the world Iraq Libya Syria Yemen Bangladesh ...Result of her diplomacy for self benefit.Future will tell if Hilary is preferred choice of the creator - that is - she is what America deserves.

Chai Pe Upar Char chya

my disgust of Modi and his words without substance and his collection of people and lack of education of his entire team and his tea shop style governance of India and his mind set can't be confidence building in near and distant future. It is punishment dealt out to now 67 years old deserving India who promotes story tellers as leaders. Mody however proving to be extreme -everyday a new way to calculate National Growth Rate is introduced in days it is double digit growth rate!! Entire cabinet is without intellect and education only noise shout down past and country is simply without future.

10 months old glob trotting story teller is demolished by two months' absentee - "Whatever is built in India rests on the foundation made by the farmers. But farmers' concerns, their children's future, their education and health are not Modi's agenda. He lives his own dream."

http://www.telegraphindia.com/1150420/jsp/frontpage/story_15633.jsp#.VTRErJMr4Qs

Wednesday, May 27, 2015

nash

i did see the film Beautiful mind
i also think his imagination of multiple equilibrium in a game table is possible and they are not zero sum - loss is not necessarily gain for some
casino owner may create a set up where it is positive always and so is some of its customers - win win situation

it took some promotion to make Nash an Economics Nobel Laureate - he lost his equilibrium
I really do not know his work in geometry for him to get Abel's prize this year
returning from prize awarding ceremony he had accident and died along with his wife

Nash was not ill - his apparent illness earned him unique merit of earning two highest awards in economics and mathematics

this world has no ill or evil

Varadhan an ISI alumni is also recipient of Abel's prize - http://www.abelprize.no/

little girl Cicilia

Little girl Cycilia greets me every morning and several times in a day
She is so little that I thought she has no ability to recognize
But she greets me with a smile that is different from all other
She pouts her two pink delicate petal lips and holds her eyes on to my eyes
and waits for me to come and take her in my arms
there after we look out together to see the world through my windows and doors 

Sunday, May 3, 2015

paul brunton

I can't attribute to me that I am reading Paul Branton
I am dummy and i can't change my stance
yet I look at myself and my changes in the course of life
my inability to check my passion and longing during 1977
my deep effort to forget my personal relationship in 1975
my wounded pride conflicting with my courage and honesty
my pages of pages daily writing of whatever came to my mind to put an order in my mind s that i can be at least professional
my marriage my family life
my near 40 years struggle to make progress and control thought
my current realization that i am nothing but dummy
yo yo played by that remain distant i can't touch but playing with me setting up people and male think their thought and hurting my pride and make suffer and dance in order to maintain my status-quot as balanced human being and not crazy which i know i am
my inability to be to make any progress in the eyes of fellow human being
the question of superiority or inferiority is deep troubling matter for me
I like to keep it hidden in my self
even when i hit nadir
i let it happen with great suffering

every moment of my life is divine